Pretty Poison

I know I may not have formally introduced everyone to one of the major characters in the jacked up story of my life but today this blog is about him.

Effing Ed. We have several friends in common, don't we - you angry little man.

I can't say I haven't missed the way you used to comfort me when I felt alone. I have had some weak moments, and you were right there to strengthen me...or so you said.

When it all falls apart, it is just you and me? Didn't you say that? So why are you here when everything seems to be going just fine?

Why won't you just release me?
Why can't you just let me be happy?
Your whispers in my ear are venom in my blood when I realize that it takes more than love, therapy, a blog, and life to rid myself of the disease that is you.

I have this and it has me today and I cannot survive another downward spiral.

I hope Ed isn't bothering any of our other acquaintances. Any suggestions from those who understand who I am referring to? And to those who don't, can't, or are here rubbernecking...let it go over your head. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Goodnight.