They say that life is a rollercoaster - - Anyone who reads the back and forth nature of this little bloggy thingy can certainly see that. I'm up, I'm down, down and up..when does it stop?

Wait, isn't that the objective here? Not wanting it to stop?

That ride stopped for a coworker who happened to be a very nice girl. I feel very sad for the circumstances that befell the beautiful Nikki McPhatter. I didn't really know her that well - - I had her phone number for shift trading purposes and I got uplifting texts every so often. We had conversations about hair dying. She had a different hair color all the time. She was fun. She was funny! And don't get her mad at the gate!! She was a fiesty person, who you could tell loved life. She was edgy and would tell you where to go if it was necessary but had the gentle soul of a butterfly. She didn't want her rollercoaster to stop. No one wanted her rollercoaster to stop - - and her contagious smile has been and will continue to be missed.

I look at what has happened to her, and I am very ashamed of the selfish way I have lived. I could sit here on an ivory pedestal and vow to be better, less selfish, tell everyone who I love that I love them. Treat them that way. Try harder to mend fences....etc.....because I only have this one life I could say that right now and mean it right now.

But what about tomorrow?

What happens tomorrow, if I am not feeling sunshiney?

I guess what happens tomorrow, is that I just take the turn on this damned rollercoaster, and be glad it's still running despite the crash course I myself set it to.

Jamie Vitters you gorgeous ray of sunshine, I have not yet told you how much I love you. Thank you for our talk yesterday. Let's do it again.

All the way to the moon!!